Just being me
…can be annoying to others.
Besides being interrogative, I can purposely be obnoxious, uncouth, and uncivilized.
I even might try to convince myself I am those last three things.
So if someone doesn’t like me because I am those things, then it doesn’t burn me, but rather, something I truly am not.
It’s such fallacy though.
My logic is skewed, and I really cannot justify my actions for being an asshole.
Right now, I’m kind of in it for me, and solely just that.
I really don’t want to get sucked into caring for someone else, going out of my way, and all those things that never seemed to get reciprocated in my last relationship.
But the truth is, I think they will get reciprocated this time, and thus, I am making a conscious effort to not open that opportunity up…because I don’t want something more.
And that is that!
WM if you are reading this, you can call and ask me that question again…but you already know the answer.
So ultimately, I’m being completely selfish and detached in all the stupid and childish ways possible — to someone who doesn’t deserve that.
Karma’s probably going to kick my ass.
I’m not gonna lie.
I enjoy spazzing out. I enjoy the touch.
But… I hate being an asshole to people, so I’m going to stop.
The real challenge is stopping something that works in my favor.
…I will not let myself fail.
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