teh fortune cookie

A burning that numbs my sore throat

slowly creeps down my chest

and remains for a few hours.

My hands become shaky and tingly –

I just want to sit down.

But the garage is stuffy and I need fresh air.

It’s easier to breathe outside.

I feel sick or need to cough when I breathe in too deeply.

I can’t get enough air –

It’s like I’m suffocating.

The rest of my body starts to feel

light, airy, and shaky.

I lay down.

My head feels like a balloon –

Hallow on the inside

and solid on the out.

That at any point, prick, or touch,

my head will explode.

I can feel the thudding of my heart

like it’s going to escape my body.

My ears are sensitive.

Music sounds muffled like it’s so close

that it’s distorted and I’ve gone deaf.

The soles of my feet feel like warm butter

that’s been heated in a microwave.

My body feels cold,

I’m shivering,

but the room is soooo warm.

The Visualizer in iTunes is trippy,

3-dimensional, and I’m seeing things I’ve never seen before.

I’m twitching.

Something that only happens before and after sex.

From way too much stimulation.

And then it hit that spot.

Human touch made me want it.

So I satisfied the crave,

for experiment purposes,

that’s what I tell him.

I felt tired and relaxed

in a strange way that I’ve never felt before.

That as soon as I lied down

I would pass out.

So I drove home on a street full of amplified lights,

making it back a quarter after 12,

falling fast asleep on my comfy bed.