More money, more problems

This materialistic,

superficial lifestyle,

is becoming.

Fighting –

only makes it that much more uncomfortable.

I’ve bought things that I don’t think will make my life any better,

but that nagging feeling

of “keeping up”

is like an itch

waiting to be scratched.

This nagging feeling to buy “materials”

is driving me crazy

and only makes me less happy when I actually buy it.

A ridiculous solution would be to buy it and immediately return it.

Paying premium for everything,

without thought.

I have to stop.

I need to learn how to manage these whimsical feelings.

I’m lacking definitive values to cope with this.

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Less money, less problems = more happiness.

In the past 3 months I’ve volunteered a total of 32 hours.

And I love that in the last three months, these memories are what stick out.

Not the tangible things I’ve purchased.

Not so much the “less than ideal” circumstances I’ve found myself in at work,

but rather the time I’ve spent giving to people.

The moments where I feel like I have a real purpose to live.