Small doses please

Not sure why today has got me in a bad mood but it’s bringing out anger and anxiety from within me.

Everyone seems to be jumping ship.
I hate that feeling of being alone, or the last one left.
I want to jump ship too then.
But wait.
I just started.
What is this anxiety?
Perhaps it’s the lack of leadership and passion to carry out a vision.
Perhaps it’s the lack of interest in me for the next one in line to care to push me in a successful direction.
I have a lot of apprehension about the future here.
I should not worry for things I cannot change.
Somehow I need to roll with the punches but I’m having a difficult time accepting the fact that the organization, culture, and my responsibilities are most likely going to change drastically.
I’m okay with small change, just big ones don’t sit well.

Especially when they occur like a  slow death.

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